ever get the feeling…

Ever get the feeling that you want to do so much more? I’ve been feeling that a lot lately. Especially when I sit here on facebook. I know there are so many people that God can use me to influence. Not only that, but I just want to express what God is doing. I want to tell of His wonderous works in my life. I feel stifled. I try to express it. I’ve tried so much, yet I still can’t completely, and I want to do more. If you look back at the past two months especially, and even back from the summer on, I’ve been trying to do that. I’ve written more in the past half year than I ever have…and even more in the past 2 months than I did during the other 2 years I’ve been writing except for last year…and I’m on pace to surpass that by a lot. I don’t know what it is in a sense…I know it is God…but there is so much that I want to express I don’t even have words for. I’ve been led to express it a lot fervently the past couple of months, but it still isn’t enough. It’s not enough even now for me to write this. I don’t even know where I am going with this.

I just want to express what is on my heart, and man there is so much. God is doing so much! He is so incredible, and what He wants to do matches His character in that way. I want so desperately to express what He has been doing to the fullest extent. I want to see His glory in all that He’s been teaching me and promising me. His promises are crazy cool, and the way that God wants to move is incredible…and I want to see that! Ahhh, to express what I want is frustrating at times. I’ve been through so much, taught so much, and even been given the opportunities to write and express some of that, but yet I still yearn for more of that. I know it is coming, and I have peace with that. I know God is working, using me and I need to be patient. That has been ingrained in me too. I still yearn for God to move and my desire is to see His glory. When you are really really hungry and you smell food, it makes you really look forward to devouring that food. In the same way, we are getting wafts of God’s glory so that we are eager desire to see it happen.

So I guess maybe the reason I write this is because I cannot express God’s glory and yet it just keeps wanting to come out of me. I am getting wafts of it, and I want to enjoy it as if it’s on a plate in front of me! This note is haphazard but again, trying to express what I want isn’t working again. But that is ok. I just can’t wait for God’s glory to be expressed to its fullest extent!!!! I want to express that and do so much more for Him!

I just wrote this and i’ll add onto this note…it still doesn’t express what is on my heart…i don’t think anything can. I think my groanings are too deep for words as Scripture talks about. God knows what is in there, because He put it there.

It splashes all around
All the drops with their individual sounds
Pitter patter the rain falls on the roof
Gospel boots are shod on each foot

There is something stirring deep inside of me
A longing drifting into view where I can see
Something vast and totally magnificent
Falling like pouring rain on the pavement

Water rises around feet dirty
Broken and destitute hearts are yearning
Father for Your love unfailing
We cannot wait for it’s total unveiling

There is something stirring deep inside of me
A longing drifting into view where I can see
Something vast and totally magnificent
Falling like pouring rain on the pavement

Overwhelmed we come to the foot of the cross
Our lives of earthly pleasure we consider all loss
Oceans rise and they cannot contain the love within
It is the vast reservoir of heaven that covers all sin

There is something stirring deep inside of me
A longing drifting into view where I can see
Something vast and totally magnificent
Falling like pouring rain on the pavement
Father send Your love down
Send it on down
Fill our desert lands
With the works of Your nail-scarred hands
We long to see Your works
And everything that You consider of worth
Let it be Father
Let it be
We long for it
And our hearts continue to cry out
We languish Father
We languish for none other

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